Since I received that challenge, I have been praying about it. My first step was to take a placement test to see which Spanish class that I should be in. Then I would email my advisor as soon as I could to set up an appointment about taking a Spanish class. College was starting in two weeks, and my schedule was already pretty full. I thought that there was no way that I would test into a good class for me, and that it would correspond with my schedule. It had been three months since I had even thought about Spanish so I was very nervous about taking the placement test. I just kept praying during my test for God to give me the right amount of knowledge to get me placed in the right Spanish class for me and also a class that fit my schedule. After a week of waiting, my advisor informed me that I tested into a Spanish class that FIT IN MY SCHEDULE! I was shocked! It fit perfectly before one of my other classes. God completed the first step of my card! I felt so relieved and so much more confident that God and I really are going to do this! Once again, he has reassured me even more in this uncertain time.
I attended my first Spanish class this week. It consisted of ten students and the friendliest teacher. What class would be more perfect for someone who's shy about talking out loud in Spanish than in a class with only ten students and a teacher who will be happy even if the answer is completely wrong!? Now, I know that God is really starting to show what He's made of! I thanked God so much this week. Not only for getting me in the perfect Spanish class, but also for healing me from my sickness on Sunday so that I wouldn't have to miss my first day of classes on Monday. I thanked him for allowing all of my teachers to be fun and loving. I thanked him for helping me to make a lot of new, good friends. I thanked him for just making my first week of college perfect!
As I continued to drive back and forth to Kokomo everyday, I started to get bored of sitting with the cruise on for 45 minutes. I considered moving in with a friend who lives in Kokomo. Then God told me that I could still use that time for something useful, and I knew exactly what He had in mind. Those 45 minutes would be perfect for me to spend talking to my God. God has done a lot of his talking to me in the past while I was driving, so driving would be a perfect time to talk to God. Plus, it was time set out of my busy schedule to just be quiet, talk to him and listen. It gives me time to pray for the day to come, get my mind set on His will, and to thank Him for the day that He has blessed me with.
Another reason that I decided against moving to Kokomo was because of one word: Cade. Cade always puts the biggest smile on my face, even when I am in the worst mood. That day, I got a text from his mom saying that she was wondering if I could start babysitting the next day! I was so happy that I was able to say yes! After talking with his mom, she needs me for a lot of hours in the next few weeks. God is providing me with many hours to help me save up for this trip and to pay for college expenses as they start to pile up. It's amazing how something so small could mean so much!
God continues to astonish me with all of the plans that He has for me. I love seeing the next step in this journey unfold, and I just look up to the sky and say thank you with the biggest smile on my face. Ever since I opened that card, I have felt the deepest happiness and peace within my soul. I have never felt God's love in this great of an altitude for me, and it never ceases. Now, I will start randomly dancing and singing around the house and in stores, because I just feel so much love from God! I can't remember the last time that I was this happy. It has been a very long year for me. Full of ups and downs, but mostly loneliness. Now, I feel like I could be completely alone, but I would never feel lonely because God's love equals the love of many, many people. I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW HAPPY AND LOVED I FEEL! I never want to lose this feeling. Ever. I just love God so much, because He loved me first and because He loves me so much more than I could ever fathom.
As I was driving to college on one really foggy day, the sun hadn't risen yet. Before the sun had come up, the road was very blurry, and it was hard to see in front of me. But once the sun finally emerged from behind the horizon, the fog was a little clearer. As soon as I saw that sun, I thought of my God. Even through all the confusion of this journey and even though I have no idea what is coming next, I know which way to go. Towards the sun. Towards my God. As long as I follow Him, the path will start to become more clear. I can't wait until the fog is gone, but until then, I will follow my Light.
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